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shizusumiCW: Two teenagers in love and everything that goes with it, soul mates after confessing love. Hiiragi is a naughty gremlin and Shizu will get his "revenge" for it. Possible mention of suicide due to canon content, either way, you been warned, these boys gonna do what boys in love at seventeen do. Don't like it, don't click.
And in the aftermath we find...
Date: 2020-10-10 08:09 pm (UTC)Probably more so because he did "threaten" his boyfriend with "punishment" for the way he worked him up last night. Though, if he is honest anything he does is going to have an effect on him. Maybe a part of him just wants to hear that voice, that way in person, if he were being honest. A little, in a way Yagi Shizusumi is even lying to himself as he makes his way to meet Hiiragi as he does every morning.
Except, this morning feels a little more charged at least for the drummer and what is going on in his brain. The thing is, it almost feels like a challenge and he is not going to refuse to rise to it. Playing disinterested will be impossible but he can exercise self-control right, after all, what he has planned all takes place on the way to or at school.
That should be enough to stop them from going to too far too fast.
He thinks.
Either way, he is in his usual spot, a few moments late as usual, walking up quietly behind Hiiragi. He does not clear his throat, does not call out, instead just steps in close and speaks.
"Good morning..."
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Date: 2020-10-10 10:24 pm (UTC).....But BOY, Hiiragi sure did talk a lot of BOLD SHIT on that phonecall when Shizu couldn't see him, huh?
He got carried away!! He couldn't help it!!! It was so, so easy to blab away about their individual and mutual fantasies while on the phone; allowing each other to say exactly what's on their minds without hesitation or filter. But now that it's almost time to meet Shizusumi FACE TO FACE again, Hiiragi finds himself wondering how the hell he's ever going to face his childhood friend like normal again!
The answer, apparently, is that... He wont.]
UWAAH!?
[Hiiragi jumps out of his skin and backs up a step on impulse as he turns to face the other boy. His eyes immediately fall upon Shizu's mouth as his way of avoiding the other boy's eyes, but then that turns out to not be a great idea either, so his gaze drops again to the safe space of the other boy's uniform tie instead.] O-oh, uh....
Hey, Shizu-chan-! ["You're late!" -is what he would usually say, as soon as he saw the tardy boy approach several minutes past their scheduled meet-up time. But the thought completely slips his mind today. Hiiragi tries to smile like usual but a strained and awkward expression stretches across his face instead. UUUUGHHH.... Why's Shizu gotta look so friggen HOT again today!? It's making Hiiragi sweat already, damn it!] When we get to class, I'm gonna need to copy some of your math notes again, okay?
Anyway, let's go!
[He's trying to be as casual as possible here. He's really trying!!]
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Date: 2020-10-11 12:17 am (UTC)He's toast, even as he tells himself he will be fine.
His hand comes up when Hiiragi backs up, fingers just lightly grazing his hips as he turns. He can feel that gaze on his lips, it makes him quickly flicker his tongue across with the thoughts it brings.
Crap...
Upper-hand in person his ass, he wants to tug Hiiragi to him, kiss his lips and banish all that nervous energy he can see in the other teenager. No scolding for being late? No eye contact, the smile so awkward. It's instinctive when his hand comes up, ruffling those locks with a soft touch.] You're lucky, I finished them this morning.
We're going to be late anyway.
[Because he was late, so why rush, right? Of course, they probably should, either way he drops his hand, shifting the strap of his bag to rest more comfortably around him as he steps forward so they can head for school. If he intentionally brushes Hiiragi when he walks past, moving slower than he needs to they can count that as "punishment" number one?]
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Date: 2020-10-11 03:39 am (UTC)After getting his hair ruffled, it becomes obvious that Something within Hiiragi's brain short-circuits; his entire head brightly burning a tomato-red. In response he can only respond robotically in a small, strained voice.]
W-well that's true.... [They may not be the worst students by any means, but it's not exactly uncommon for them to be late to class on occasion. Look, if you're searching for someone to lecture you about being a model student, you'll have no such luck getting such words of wisdom from the notoriously flashy delinquent Hiiragi Kashima. Anyway, more importantly....
ARE YOU KIDDINGGGGGG?!?!?!?!
If Hiiragi could hear that last thought from Shizusumi, he'd have flipped his lid! That's not "punishment one"!!! They've only just met up SECONDS ago, and Hiiragi is pretty damn certain that he's received nothing but a merciless combo of "punishments" during this interaction from the start!!
Is this being done on purpose??? It's gotta be, right??? Shit-- they've been friends for around 13 years and suddenly Hiiragi realizes that he doesn't even know what level of distance they've been keeping with each other back when they were just "normal friends".... Is this an abnormal amount of contact, or is this how they've always been? Hiiragi's pretty sure he would have noticed if Shizu was sticking THIS close to him! Then again, all things considered, maybe Hiiragi was just too blind to notice THAT too!? Also, what the hell should Hiiragi talk about with Shizu right now? The weather?? Usually when they walk to school together, Hiiragi has absolutely no problem blabbing on about any number of random topics until they get to class- but suddenly he can't think of a single thing other than the mild warmth radiating from the hand that occasionally brushes against his own!
This is going to be the longest journey to school EVER. Is it even worth it!? Would it be bad if maybe Hiiragi just grabbed Shizu's arm, turned around, and dragged him back to his house right now....? Probably, huh....
Aargh, no, no.... Even Hiiragi knows that skipping school just so they can fool around all day would be a bit much. So all he can do is swallow down his horny teenage impulses and try not to shudder TOO HARD ever time they "accidentally" make contact with each other. Even just these small touches feel so good that they nearly ache. But as painful as it is... Hiiragi kind of also doesn't even know if he WANTS Shizu to put any distance between them?? Lord help him....] Um, Shizu....
Your hand... [He bristles; trembling again when they touch.] ...A-are you... cold, or something...?
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Date: 2020-10-23 05:02 am (UTC)He’s ached so long to touch him, and now he knows he can, knows Hiiragi wants him to, and yet, here on a public street as they head to school is the exact wrong place to do so. It is almost impossible not to take the other by the hand, pull him into some little out of the way spot, and just kiss him; how is he supposed to make it the entire day, attempting to work Hiiragi up in return for that phone call when he is beginning to fire on all cylinders before they have even made it to school.
He is punishing himself almost as much as Hiiragi.
Right now, he is fighting the urge to do exactly what Hiiragi thinks about a few moments earlier and blow school off. He is then more likely to end up napping in the nurse's office than in class anyway.
This morning is a mixture of the googles, so to speak clearing and that Shizusumi is intentionally finding little moments to touch more, to be closer, to in his way tease Hiiragi as the other did him last night with his words. He is no wordsmith, but he is finding his ground in this part of their relationship, and it comes in just how sensitive Hiiragi is.
He watches on occasion from the corner of his eye, every little shudder, the bristling, the way behind his bright eyes he can see the singer’s mind working, thinking about every little subtle touch. When he finally speaks, the drummer pulls up short, blinks then tilts his head with the faintest hint of a smirk.]
Would you hold it if it was?
[He holds it out subtlety; if he takes it, the chances of Shizusumi finding an out of the way spot and making them a few more minutes late is going to increase ten-fold.]
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Date: 2020-10-29 04:36 pm (UTC)[You would never know just how badly Hiiragi longs to touch and be touched in return from the way he reacts to the other boy's offered hand; jolting with a start and flinching away from it as if it were a dangerously burning fire threatening to engulf him.
But that's exactly what it feels like. That hand should be nothing but a wholly innocent, sweet gesture that Hiiragi should have no problems taking hold of, just like he has several times in the past... and yet it's not. Maybe before last night, it wouldn't even be a problem for the boys to hold hands; to enjoy each other's warmth through that supportive connection like they occasionally used to as children. But they're not kids anymore, and now more than ever, it's growing more and more difficult- maybe even impossible- for Hiiragi to see Shizusumi in the same light that he used to. The small, cute, innocent little Shizu-chan that Hiiragi used to see as being too pure to even hold any kind of sexual desire for anyone at all is gone now. Or... maybe he never even existed to begin with?
Now there is only his tall, handsome, unexpectedly forward and even flirtatious boy in front of Hiiragi; tempting the blond with an offer that they both KNOW has the potential to go way further than mere hand-holding if Hiiragi were to accept it.]
I-- I MEAN.... UM!!!
[Totally speechless (for once), Hiiragi's wide gaze flicks up and down between Shizusumi's face and the offered hand as he comes to a halt; frozen in place by the dilemma. As much as he'd like to think that he'd be able to control himself for Shizu's sake if this really was a case of the other boy needing some warmth, the fact that the sensitive boy is already visibly trembling from nothing but the thought of giving it states otherwise. Maybe Shizusumi would be able to handle it well and take such contact in stride like usual, but damn it, it's just way too soon for Hiiragi to be able to handle this yet!]
IT'S N-NOT THAT I W-WOULDN'T, BUT...! R-right now... would be bad... and.... [...And as bad as he feels about turning Shizusumi down, if Hiiragi stays in this moment with his boyfriend any longer, all this blood that has flooded to his rose-colored face will inevitably start heading south REAL QUICK, and at that point there's just no hope that there'd be any of it left to keep powering his brain!
So Hiiragi quickly turns away from it and starts walking ahead again.]
A- ANYWAY, LET'S JUST GO! [He shouts, scolding.] WE'RE ALREADY LATE BECAUSE OF YOU, IDIOT!!!
[He tries his best to distract from the subject with loud pseudo-anger, but Shizusumi likely knows better than to take it seriously.]
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Date: 2020-10-31 09:59 pm (UTC)What should be nothing new is as if for the first time, even as he dares the other to take his hand. Daring him to encourage the drummer to throw the last of his caution to the wind, he is nervous. What if Hiiragi does reach out? What happens the moment their fingers truly connect.
Yet, he is willing to tempt it; he held back for so long. Was ready to hold back forever, anything to be near the other teenager. Hiiragi will have to come to terms with one thing, that pure, innocent Shizusumi is grown up, and his eyes never left that loud-mouth force of nature who grabbed his hand first. The trembling is nearly Shizusumi’s undoing; the other may not realize how much willpower it takes for him not to take the trembling boy in his arms.
Even the speechlessness threatens to start something he knows they can not stop, and they certainly should not do at school or on the way there. That blushing will kill him; what is it about it that makes him want to make Hiiragi do it time and again. Wants to push the buttons till they both forget any semblance of going to school.
And he is spiraling, entirely distracted by the way the singer is responding to his offered hand. Then Hiiragi “storms” ahead and throws back that angry comment. For a split second, a fond, almost amused expression crosses the stoic young man’s face before it is schooled back into that half scowl while he follows behind.
Everything he thinks to say would only further the situation, so for a few seconds longer, he remains reticent, easily catching up with Hiiragi.]
You’ll forgive me once you see why I was late.
[Is that a hint that maybe he has something, something he will leave Hiiragi to think over all day.]
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Date: 2020-11-03 07:56 pm (UTC)Usually Hiiragi would pout or try to act upset at getting so obviously teased by his friends, but in this case Hiiragi can only feel mournful for the fact that he had to pass on an offer to be intimate with Shizusumi when he really didn't want to! Honestly- Hiiragi is still considering it, even after they start walking off. How could he not?? Of course Hiiragi wants to hold Shizu's hand, and hug him, and touch him, and kiss him, and do all sorts of lovey-dovey things!!
But in the end, the blond behaves himself. Just barely. And maybe it's a good thing that he did, because once Hiiragi caves to temptation and starts going down the path of sacrificing common sense for the sake of his physical needs, who knows what kinds of risky things Hiiragi's impulsive mind would have him do just to satiate his newfound lust? To be honest, it's been especially bad lately... These feelings stirring up inside of Hiiragi's body were a lot easier to push off into the easily-ignored corners of his mind back before Hiiragi fully admitted his feelings for Shizu to himself. But lately he's been so damn horny, it's insane! Hiiragi has always been someone ruled by his emotions after all, but since he's never been in love with anyone before Shizu, he's never known himself to be capable of raging, uncontrollable arousal... Until now. He wont admit to it, but even after they got off of the phone with each other last night, Hiiragi ended up getting so restless with all of the fantasies they created swirling around in his head that he ended up having to "take care of himself" again before bed. Is this even normal...?
Hiiragi's inner thoughts are interrupted when Shizusumi catches up to him and speaks as if he's got something special up his sleeve for Hiiragi to witness. The blond blinks and raises his brows in surprise- immediately distracted by the bait.] Wait- huh?
Once I "see"...? [Predictably, he asks-] See what??
You can't just say that and not tell me what it is!
[Is it something for the band?? A cool new manga?? Or maybe even... something lewd!?!
Ahh, no, it can't be right?? Shizu isn't the type who'd go so far as to bring "dirty" things to school...
Unless..?As Hiiragi grows impatient and pesters Shizusumi for him to talk, they arrive at the train station and Hiiragi prepares to board their usual train to school. They don't live very far from school at all so it shouldn't take too long for the pair to arrive at their stop after their train comes.]
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Date: 2020-11-22 01:59 am (UTC)There is a faint tickle of disappointment in the drummer when the blonde behaves himself, even just barely. Almost as if he is hoping Hiiragi will tug that last string of his control and make him let go. The problem in all this is, where usually Hiiragi could be impulsive, Shizu would let him go so far but pull him back before he crossed any significant lines. He can not do that here; if Hiiragi makes an impulsive move the taller teenager is done for, he will succumb to precisely what he is thinking about even now. He feels like a magnet. Where he could ignore those urges and feelings when he thought Hiiragi wanted Yuki, not him, that they were never going to be more than friends, now, he knows different, and all he can think about is those fantasies they built up over the phone last night.
One in particular as the train pulls into the station. Shit!!!]
What I went back to get.
[And with that answer, he goes silent, one looking at the train as he steps on as his portal to a personal hell. The moment he is on, turns and sees Hiiragi’s face, one image, one thought fills his brain, and the rest of Hiiragi’s rambles go unanswered as his eyes darken, he sucks in a sharp breath and realizes he may not get out of this train unscathed.
Not when his gaze falls immediately to Hiiragi’s lips and the thoughts of them doing very lewd things to his body while they ride this train. It’s not a thought at all for Shizusumi when he steps forward to where they nearly touch, it’s instinct and need, and if this train ride does not end soon, both are going to overwhelm him.]
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Date: 2020-11-25 07:07 pm (UTC)So mean!! [Now Hiiragi is really pouting; growing more and more curious about this "mystery item" that Shizu presumably has with him, the more Shizusumi refuses to reveal it. Whatever the thing is, it has to be something for Hiiragi specifically, right? Like a gift??? Otherwise there wouldn't be any need for this kind of secrecy, right?? But... UGGH- the thought of getting a gift from SHIZU is so exciting, it's only making the tease of it more frustrating!
As Hiiragi wracks his brain to think about what it could possibly be, he walks ahead to board the train with a sulky huff; now single-mindedly distracted with the thought.] You're being too stubborn....
[He's being too CHEEKY, actually; teasing Hiiragi like that! And then, to make matters worse...] -!?
[-Having the nerve to approach Hiiragi with that look in his eyes??? The sheer amount of intensity within Shizu's gaze is so unexpected when their eyes meet again within the train that the blond finds himself taking a step backwards immediately after facing the taller boy again; heart skipping a beat at the sight. His back touches against the wall of the train now as the boys stand very close to each other; an undeniable heat surging throughout Hiiragi's entire body, causing him to blush a deep pink for what is already the third or so time today. But... Hiiragi's bristling doesn't last long.
Because in the next moment, Hiiragi's own bright eyes are narrowing to meet Shizu's darkened gaze head-on. He feels cornered, in a way... but not by Shizusumi, per se. Rather, Hiiragi feels backed into a corner by his own desires; the impulses that refuse to be ignored any longer, despite how inappropriate the current time and setting may be. Yes, it's true that it'd be foolish to get too close in public given the mood they're both in right now- but fuck it. If Shizu's gonna keep giving Hiiragi THAT LOOK, whether he means to or not, then it's only natural Hiiragi's self-restraint will snap!
So despite his continued blushing, Hiiragi instinctually launches his own 'counter-attack'; reaching out with one hand to grab Shizusumi by the front of his necktie and yank him forward with a hard pull. Now, rather than "nearly touching", their bodies really are close enough to graze against each other; the larger boy's body serving as a sort of shield for Hiiragi against the eyes of most others on the train. Hiiragi isn't small enough to be completely hidden- making the proximity that much more dangerous to linger within- but maybe deep down, that risk just makes the power move even more exciting to pull off.]
Damn it... you.... [Hiiragi's narrowed, heated gaze looks up at Shizusumi with lustful determination as his voice hisses quietly.] I'm not gonna lose to you!
[Leaning forward, it almost looks as if Hiiragi will kiss the other boy- but after a moment of lingering close enough to practically share the same breath, the blond moves to whisper beside Shizusumi's ear instead.] Hey...
...Don't you wanna show me what you've got? [-Meaning the 'mystery gift' that Shizu has for him, of course... Probably. But well, Shizu is free to interpret that however he likes. When he speaks again, Hiiragi does so while turning his head in such a way that his mouth may 'accidentally' graze against the other boy's jawline.]
What if... I promise to give you something special too~?
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Date: 2020-11-29 05:29 am (UTC)I never said I was nice. [Never has thought of himself as a nice person; he is usually very detached from most things, choosing to live behind a wall, except for the blond in front of him who essentially took that wall and blew it up like a stick of dynamite. And now Shizu is so wholly distracted by him and thoughts of that conversation the night before that he feels he may need a quick save. ]
No worse than you.
[He can feel the response in his body from the thought in his mind, from the closeness of the other boy. He can see the reaction in Hiiragi’s eyes, and he knows something is coming; that narrowing gaze gives it away. Yet, it leaves him no room for preparation when his boyfriend steps in. He can feel desire and disappointment mingle in his stomach when he almost feels those lips he’s craving. This time, he did not mean to give that look, but it’s too late now. It’s all over the moment his necktie is grabbed, eyes flaring, the intensity turning into an almost fire of desire instantly; Hiiragi is so close Shizu can feel his heat burning into him.
Hiiragi is in his space, close enough that a shift of Shizusumi’s body allows the taller boy to settle his fingers on the other teenager’s hips. At the same time, he teases with those words whispered against his boyfriend’s ear, making sure those digits are beneath the jacket so as not to be seen he does not let go. The breath he sucks in is quiet but sharp, and there is no way this close that the other boy won’t hear it.
His brain, his body all scream fuck yes, he wants to show Hiiragi what he has, everything, he wants to shove him back against the wall of that train and show him right now does use the shifting of the train to cover the fact the while he is pulled by his tie, he uses that hold on hip to firmly put Hiiragi's back to the solid surface, his body close enough now that every bump will make them brush each other.]
Damn it, Hiiragi…
[he hisses through his teeth, lucky for them, this early there are not many people, the train later would be another story and as he scans he can see a car that looks empty, does he dare? How does he not? Can he even wait long enough to get off this train and somewhere more secluded? He nearly tells the other boy to follow him, almost gives in then and there. He does realize then, their chances of making it to school are quickly slipping through their fingers, and he is not in the least bit worried about it.
At the last moment, he wrestles control, breathing out slowly, his fingers flexing softly against Hiirag's hip. Then he reaches in his pocket and draws out the chocolates he and Mafuyu made. It's his quick save that stops him (at least for this second) from dragging his boyfriend to that empty car and showing him everything he has, including all the need and wants that have been brewing in Shizusumi since he knew what desire was.]
I made them.
[He brings the box up between them, not moving, not letting go. He can not give up the proximity or the feel of Hiiragi against him, even if it is a barely-there and not the full press of body he wants.]
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Date: 2020-12-03 12:14 am (UTC)Hmph. [The blond huffs, stubbornly, in response to being called out for it.] I dunno what you're talkin' about...
[Their casual banter is put on hold immediately, the moment that their proximity to each other shrinks down to just a few mere centimeters apart. Rather than running from it, Hiiragi makes the snap decision to lean into that dangerous heat that radiates from the absurdly handsome boy in front of him; assertively yanking Shizusumi in close by his tie. To be honest, it was thrilling- though admittedly pretty foolish- to do something so bold right out in the open... It was a power-move of sorts, a way to unabashedly claim Shizu as his, for all to see. The way that Shizu looks now is dangerous... Yet sexy as all hell, and Hiiragi couldn't help but to try and push the other boy's buttons a little. Everything from the hungry look in Shizu's dilated eyes to his sharper breathing, to the heavier tone of his voice makes it perfectly clear that Shizusumi is doing his best not to snap right now, and the thought of such desire being sparked by Hiiragi himself of all people has a shudder running down the blond's spine from the thrill. Then suddenly-]
Ah- [-Hiiragi flinches, and a quiet sound of surprise slips from his throat. There are hands at his hips... And those hands are subtly pushing Hiiragi backwards until the blond's back is literally up against the wall. Shizusumi... isn't running away from this tension either, is he. Far from it- rather than giving Hiiragi a lecture or telling Hiiragi to behave, Shizusumi meets the "challenge" head-on and even one-ups it. For a moment the blond is so shocked that he's paralyzed, looking up at Shizusumi with baited breath as if anticipating more... But despite the tease of contact between their bodies filling Hiiragi with undeniable arousal- Shizusumi ends up shifting back just enough to retract his hand and dig around inside of his pants pocket for something, which is then held between them.]
H-huh...? [The dazed voice that trembled it's way out of Hiiragi's tight throat came out sounding confused, and wavered far more than Hiiragi anticipated. It takes Hiiragi a moment to tear his gaze away from Shizisumi's face and register the fact that Shizu gave in to him already. But despite the fact that making Shizu surrender the "secret" he had been hiding had been Hiiragi's initial goal, the blond can't help feeling a bit disappointed that it came at the cost of losing the touch of those fingertips that were against his hip, just below the hem of his school jacket. But maybe it's for the best? If those fingers were to creep any higher- high enough to slip beneath Hiiragi's untucked shirt, for example... Hiiragi would have been done for.
But, as heart-pounding as that tension-filled moment between them was, it still somehow doesn't matter to compare to the way that Hiiragi's heart damn-near bursts at the realization of what Shizusumi holds in his hand.] Wai-- WHAT!?
You....
You MADE me chocolates!? [Even the words themselves sound bizarre coming out of Hiiragi's mouth; like something imaginary, pulled straight out of Hiiragi's wildest fantasies. Heat flushes Hiiragi's face a bright shade of red as he imagines the sight of Shizusumi slaving away in a kitchen for him; yet another side of the other boy that Hiiragi never thought he would witness.
Now Hiiragi's back to trembling again. In a slightly different way than before. Honestly, Hiiragi is so moved right now that he could just fucking MELT. If it weren't for Shizusumi's free hand remaining on his hip right now, the blond might've LITERALLY been swayed enough to lose his balance just then.]
Shizu... [Hiiragi looks up at his friend- no, his boyfriend- with wide, slightly-wet eyes. They shimmer with unabashed adoration for the boy in front of him, and soon enough Hiiragi is using his free hand to gingerly take the gift offered to him as if it were something precious- which it is!]
...Th-thank you. I... um...
[God, after all of that, why does Hiiragi suddenly feel so SHY right now?? There Hiiragi was, feeling confident and cocky with his newfound powers of persuasion one minute- and the next minute, Shizusumi throws him a totally romantic curveball that knocks Hiiragi right off of his game!!
But, well, it's not like Hiiragi is even thinking about that anymore. For the moment all he feels is the tender care that Shizusumi shows to him through his gesture; it's something so much more than just mere chocolate. Hiiragi wasn't really putting much thought into little things like gift-giving that would change between them once they transitioned from being friends to lovers, but Shizusumi... really wants to be with Hiiragi as a proper couple, huh?
Just as Hiiragi thought; Shizu is a truly considerate, capable, kind person.]
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Date: 2020-12-03 12:14 am (UTC)His eyes gaze up at Shizusumi longingly as he lingers close.] I... sorry, I just... love you.
I love you so much, Shizu-chan...
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Date: 2020-12-12 09:19 pm (UTC)The singer is caught between his body and the wall behind him; touching him would be far too easy, the angle of Shizu’s larger body hiding anything he might do and any reactions it might bring. His only saving grace is the box he holds so tightly in his hand.
Then he is captivated in another way entirely; it’s Hiiragi’s heart that wraps Shizusumi in its grip as the other boy processes the fact that what is being held out to him is a romantic, homemade gift from the drummer. That he took effort, time to make something for the other to show him that he is all in, this is not just desire, this is honest love, his heart open and here for Hiiragi to do with as he will. This is a proper relationship between a proper couple, and that is all he wants.
Those lips are like breathing to him, brief and tender as they may, they linger even after the moment is gone, taking every ounce of self-control not to lean in, to taste them again, to linger longer, deepen the touch and forget words, speak the way he knows how to best, through actions. Those eyes are then looking at him how he’s dreamt of them looking at him for so long, with the same well of emotion that he feels. For a moment, as gazes lock, it’s evident in his eyes, he loves the other just as much. Everything in him is for Hiiragi; he can not see, feel, or even think of anyone else.
This is his place, right here, in this young man’s heart because this same young man owns every part of Shizusumi, including his heart. He darts his tongue across his lips, his mouth going dry; he wants to say the words because hearing them is something he feels through his body. I love you; I love you so much. He thinks, never stops, never leave me, because without Hiiragi, without this love, he can now see and feel the world will go dark, and Shizu is grabbing ahold of that glittering light. Or more subtle, he is sliding his hand up, not thinking as it slips beneath the shirt, goes to the small of Hiiragi’s back.
His breathing quicker as emotions threaten to consume in ways he never thought they could, he has always done so well keeping them in check. He can not now. He leans in, using the motion of the train to make it look like he is bumped as his lips come to Hiiragi’s ear.]
I..let me hold you. I want to show you.
[Because words are failing, it’s too public, too many people, too overwhelming, and he is choking up, but If he can be alone with Hiiragi, he can show him, tell him how he feels. Because only with Hiiragi is he safe.]
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Date: 2020-12-16 03:38 am (UTC)It's nothing, really- or at least it shouldn't be. Just a small touch to his skin- but somehow it makes Hiiragi shudder so hard that he forgets about the rest of the world entirely and just submits to that pleasure without resistance. This is his first time being touched sensually by someone he loves-- hell, it's the first time Hiiragi's body has been deliberately caressed like this period, and he was not prepared for how different it felt from their usual exchange of platonic contact. -Nor how good it felt by comparison... But not even the touch of Shizusumi's hand can beat the stimulation that ravishes Hiiragi's senses when that glorious voice speaks directly against the shell of Hiiragi's pierced ear; warm breath hotly exhaled against the blond's skin in a way that makes him physically jump with a startled twitch.]
Uwa-- unn...! [Waaait wait wait- not the ear!!! A weird, high-pitched noise escapes Hiiragi's throat before he can help it; the vibrations of Shizu's voice hitting him unexpectedly hard. It's too much!! But all Hiiragi can do is pray that the other passengers don't notice his barely-restrained reactions above the sound of the moving train. It's no use trying to hold himself back- the "secretly" soft, sensitive blond is doomed to make a very public scene of indecency if Shizu's touches escalate much further than this. A complex cocktail of embarrassment, excitement, and love swirl around behind Hiiragi's still-wet eyes as he pulls his head back a little- partially so that he can he can look at Shizu's face, partially out of surprise at Shizu's bold words, and also partially so that he can spare himself the embarrassment of reacting strongly again if Shizu were to speak against his ear for a second time. There's no way his heart could take that!]
H-hold!? [Like, now?? Hiiragi can't believe it... Well, he CAN, but even if he wished for it, he just never expected it to REALLY happen so soon!!! And yet... it doesn't take long for him to respond after the initial shock wears off. Hiiragi's expression goes from flustered shock to enamored arousal in an instant; face burning red as he makes a decision and replies honestly.] ...Yeah, I... I want it too.
[But of course he does; that much is obvious just by looking at the transparent singer's unknowingly lewd expression right now as he looks up at Shizu with the same blatant "fuck me" eyes that he did just after their first deep kiss. Yet despite how horny he is, an obvious dilemma remains. He pauses, before shyly asking-] But... How? I mean, where should we go?
Should we... head back to your place?
[That's probably the smartest thing to do, but it'd just take so damn long to leave the train, cross over to the opposite platform, wait for the next train back to come and then walk from the bus stop... Can they really be so patient right now before one of them loses it?? Seems unlikely at this point...]
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Date: 2020-12-19 04:27 am (UTC)And he is helpless at resisting. Giving in feels so inevitable that any resistance melts away the moment Hiiragi responds. The moment he feels the same rush, need coming from the body, he meant not to touch yet, he planned to hold back. On a train, is he going to start this here, now on a public train where one wrong move and the entire occupancy would know he is touching the other boy in ways that should only be done privately? When he jumps, Shizu flattens his palm against his back, as if to soothe and hold him in place, feeling every dip of muscle as the slender male shifts, to keep him away from his ear.
Then the eyes he loves more than anything in the world are looking at him, and Shizusumi inhales sharply. It’s not just physical desire driving him; he loves this young man, so wholly he thought it would rule and consume, and it is, except in a much more pleasant way than he ever thought possible. For the rest of his life, he wants him every day, every night, he wants Hiiragi and only Hiiragi. From the bratty, headstrong, driven singer to the soft, oversensitive heart that breaks so easily and worries so much for those he cares for. He wants to love, protect, and consume every part of Hiiragi; it’s selfish. Because he knows the moment those words are spoken., Hiiragi says he wants it too and Shizu at first thinks, yes back to his house, there is no one to bother them, they would be alone, safe in his bed.
But then those eyes give him a different look, one that begs for Shizu’s touch, begs to have his body ravished, pleasured and taken by the drummer and he swallows, his hand slips from Hiiragi’s back, he steps back, takes the blond’s hand with a shake of his head. And leads them to the empty train cart, slamming the connecting door, he turns to the blond and pulls him away from the door and out of sight.]
Too far…
[Yes, his house is too far. No, he does not intend to go all the way here on the train, but there has to be something, some release before he can even muster the strength to make the ride home without them losing their virginity in a very public setting. He sits on the empty bench, pulling Hiiragi by his hand into his lap, head tilted back, hands cup his bottom, sliding him forward so he can feel already how much his boyfriend wants him, how his body already responds to just the small contact they’ve had.]
Kiss me….
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Date: 2020-12-29 07:44 pm (UTC)Sh-Shizu...?? [It's a bit awkward to walk all of a sudden! Luckily Hiiragi's untucked shirt is long enough to cover his bulging erection decently enough, but still- walking around in public with a boner is... well...
...Actually....
It's kinda making Hiiragi feel hot for some reason????
Embarrassment and arousal both send a shiver down Hiiragi's spine as he awkwardly stumbles along, face flushed bright red with his head down while he's pulled along by the other boy. His heart is pounding hard from the thrill despite not knowing what's on Shizusumi's mind until he's standing in an empty train car, watching Shizusumi take a seat while being urged to do the same.
"Kiss me."
A groan emerges from Hiiragi's throat, and once again he's caught off-guard by just how weak in the knees he feels from nothing but the tone of his boyfriend's voice. If it were literally anyone else ordering him to do something like that, Hiiragi would immediately become defiant; puffing up in pseudo-offense or complaining about having an order "barked" at him- just to make things difficult, even if that wasn't what he truly believed. That's just the kind of guy Hiiragi is; he's bratty, stubborn, and too prideful for his own good... On the surface, at least. But because this is Shizu, deep down....
Those straightforward, almost forceful words are like magic to his ears.
Literally, it's as if he's under a spell; body moving forward to comply on it's own because damn it, there's no way he can even pretend that kissing Shizu isn't exactly what he wants to do right now. -What he's BEEN wanting to do, ever since laying eyes on Shizusumi today. Shizusumi pulls Hiiragi into his lap and Hiiragi goes along with it so eagerly that it's more like the blond is pouncing on the other boy with a bit of assistance, if anything. His knees straddle Shizusumi's lap at first but then large hands are cupping Hiiragi's backside and pulling him even closer, so that he's fully nestled into Shizusumi's lap. And there, instantly... Hiiragi can't help but to notice something thick and hard poking up against him.]
Ah...! [His eyes blink open wide and he gasps; back going rigid for a brief moment as his face flushes in realization. Hiiragi... wasn't the only one struggling with his desires this whole time, was he? They were barely even touching each other much back in the other train car and yet the mere proximity made each of the boys unbearably hard and horny.]
Y-yeah... Okay... [He doesn't have to be told twice. Hiiragi immediately presses forward to capture Shizusumi's mouth with his own in the next moment; putting his box of chocolates aside for a moment upon the bench so that he can use both hands to firmly grab both sides of Shizusumi's head, as if to keep him put. He's so desperate to taste Shizusumi's tongue again that he can't even take the time to be delicate about it... Rather than starting slow, he bites his way past Shizusumi's lips and delves his tongue deep inside of the other boy's mouth immediately; desperate and forceful. His body, as well, is equally demanding; hips rolling to grind lewdly against the strained bulge of Shizusumi's dick. His own resulting arousal at the feeling has him moaning shamelessly into their kiss, body trembling with desire for more.
Maybe he's going too far, too fast... But Hiiragi can't hold himself back! Because this is the real Shizu he's got his hands on now. Not a dream, or a fantasy.... And as fun as their phone-sex session might've been last night, this isn't that either. Shizu's physical body is here sitting beneath Hiiragi's, and now that the blond finally has his claws on the other boy, he has no intention of letting go until he's satisfied.]
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Date: 2021-01-05 05:06 am (UTC)The feel of his body as they go flush together, his own responding, imaging how it would feel to have Hiiragi move against him, more than that, to be inside of him as he moved in the drummer’s lap. All this in his mind already the moment Hiiragi utters that Ah, going rigid as he feels the proof of his effect on Shizusumi; it’s like fire licking through his veins.
Then he concedes, and no he does more than that; he moves in eager, his hips roll the same way Shizusumi imagined them, and he comes undone there beneath the other boy, lips parting, moving up, hungry, needy into the kiss. At first, gripping the other boy by the bottom, moving that erection into the other teen’s grinding hips with a huffed out-breath of want. For the first few moments, he kisses back, moving into the way Hiiragi moves.
Except, even that is not enough, too many layers between him and skin he aches to touch so much it hurt. The drummer shifts, moving their bags to block what he intends to do next from view. He breaks the kiss, only long enough to drag in a breath.]
Don’t make too much noise.
[Then he crashes into another kiss, fingers sliding beneath the cover he has made, finding Hiiragi’s waistline, the fiddles for a moment, undoing his uniform pants, there is no hesitation when his hand slips in, finds his boyfriend’ arousal, he gives enough of a tug to pants to free the other boy.
Then those calloused digits from holding drum sticks wrap around Hiiragi; he is gentle in his strokes, if only because it is dry to begin with, at least till he can break his lips away from his boyfriend’s long enough to rectify that. For the moment, he can not, his hips move up, into the other, his arousal straining against his pants, grinding in as he teases the other’ with his hand.
It’s nowhere near what he wants, but it is what he can do in the here and now till the trains stop, and he can get them somewhere more private than an empty train car.]
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Date: 2021-01-18 06:36 pm (UTC)Oh God, h-hurry.... Touch me... ngh, come on...
[But then when their kiss is fully broken and Shizu speaks again, Hiiragi blinks in surprise before complaining indignantly-] Uwh- wai-- huh??
Shizu, that's not fair...! [Does Shizu really expect Hiiragi to be quiet under these circumstances? How?!?
Well, Hiiragi can only complain for so long before Shizusumi's large hand envelops his cock in a warm grip, and Hiiragi moans out shamelessly with a startled gasp.] Ohh...! It's-- nn, ssso good... Amazing, Shizu please -Don't stop..!
[So much for not making "too much noise".
Unfortunately Hiiragi can't really help himself at the moment. -Not that he's necessarily trying too hard to anyway. So, like always, it's gonna be up to Shizu to be the responsible one here and keep his boyfriend under control. Hell; the singer can barely keep himself from being loud and explosively expressive when he's not having his cock stroked very kinkily on a public train, so really, Shizu should've known better than to believe his boyfriend would be capable of listening and behaving himself so easily in such a a situation.
Luckily Shizu is quick enough to crush his mouth against Hiiragi's in the next moment, however; quickly muffling Hiiragi before he can speak any more. It's quite the effective method for silencing him, apparently, because Hiiragi melts into the kiss instantly and doesn't resist it at all. The texture of Shizusumi's calloused hand is rough against him, but honestly Hiiragi can't even say that part of him doesn't enjoy that as well. Shizu's touch is just like Shizu himself in a way; hardened, strong, and yet exceedingly gentle all the same. It's all so very Shizu that Hiiragi's arousal only burns hotter to feel it... So much so that the head of his cock begins to drip with precum already; leaking down to helpfully add a bit of slick wetness to Shizusumi's hand. The small bit of lubrication only encourages Hiiragi to be greedier- to seek out more of Shizusumi's touch. His hips begin to thrust up on their own, demanding more of his boyfriend's touch as he mindlessly fucks into Shizu's grip of him. One hand holds onto one of Shizu's ridiculously broad shoulders as Hiiragi's other hand slides back to grip into Shizusumi's fluffy tufts of dark hair; the length just long enough for Hiiragi to get a good, possessive grip of it. Al the while Hiiragi continues to desperately buck his hips; indulging himself in the feel of Shizusumi's hand while also moving against the stiff erection straining up against him from below. God, Hiiragi wants to take that thing inside of himself so bad... And it shows, with how increasingly desperate he gets with every passing moment.
Even with Shizusumi swallowing the sound of most of Hiiragi's moans down within their kiss, Hiiragi is still fairly loud during their passionate tongue-kissing. His whimpers and moans probably don't travel beyond this empty car thanks to the noise of the train itself drowning him out, but if anyone were to enter the train with Hiiragi as he is now, there'd be no mistaking it... Hiiragi is completely coming undone; drowning in pleasure and doing nothing to prevent himself from losing all composure. Between the unbearably kinky public setting, the fact that the sensitive virgin is being touched like this for the very first time, and the fact that he's being touched by Shizu especially... It's all just so overwhelmingly stimulating already, Hiiragi could very easily be pushed right over the edge into a pathetically early climax soon, if Shizusumi willed it so.]
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Date: 2021-01-22 07:31 am (UTC)He does his best to swallow every sound the other boy makes with greedy kisses, claiming his mouth over and over again till the drummer himself can barely catch a breath, only stopping the kisses long enough o drag in a harsh breath before consuming the feel, the taste of his boyfriend on his lips again.
All the while his hand strokes, steadily getting faster the more he feels that leakage, thumb caressing the tip to help distribute it more. The grinding makes his dick throb beneath Hiiragi, he finds a pace with the other and his rising his hips into it, just pushing his dick that much harder against the other. He’s so perfect to Shizu’s eyes, to his ears.
The heat between their bodies nearly burning the taller male, he works one hand free, shifting their bodies enough till he can undo his own pants, pulling himself from his pants, he brings Hiiragi forward again, so that where he is hand does not caress, his dick does, so that his own knuckles can drag over the heated bundle of nerves that are so achingly hard he’d probably lose his mind if Hiiragi were to touch him.
In fact, as heated cock presses to heated cock hand stroking between them, he does moan softly into the kiss. His now free hand that is not stroking his boyfriend sliding down the back of his pants, cupping one ass cheek and squeezing it firmly if only to rock their hips together even more.]
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Date: 2021-02-02 03:50 pm (UTC)In an instant, Hiiragi is breaking their kiss; panting breathlessly as he looks down to curiously watch as the other boy exposes himself. Going bright red from the sight- as well as gasping at the firm squeeze to his ass- Hiiragi is left stunned and wide-eyed as his heart pounds painfully in his chest.
This is... Hiiragi's first time seeing Shizu like this...
Sure- he's seen the other boy's body before, at various times in their life. Even just recently he managed to have a near-death experience when his heart literally stopped at the unexpected sight of Shizusumi's naked body after he climbed through the other boy's window. But not even that could prepare him for what he witnesses now; the sight of his former-friend/current-lover fully erect with need. A need that Hiiragi gave him....]
You're... so hard...
[Hiiragi stares down in rapt fascination; speaking his frazzled thoughts out loud with a gasp. Yes, it makes sense that Shizusumi is hard, but it's another thing entirely to SEE it! Hiiragi didn't think it was possible but an even stronger wave of arousal washes over his body at the sight; a shudder running down his spine as his own cock twitches and leaks out more precum against the other boy's dick. And the way they're pressed together like this now makes it even more obvious- there's a visible difference between their sizes and girth, too, that also has Hiiragi feeling like he's about ready to pass out from all the blood leaving his brain and shooting straight south. A loud whine of a moan escapes Hiiragi's throat as he clutches onto the other boy tightly, crying out in a sudden whine as Shizu squeezes and pumps their cocks together in his large hand. It doesn't take much more than a few quick strokes at that point to send Hiiragi tumbling straight over the edge; coming messily within Shizu's grip and between their bodies.]
Shizu-- SHIZU-- AAH~!!
[The bassist feels his entire body convulse as spurt after spurt of cum liters his boyfriend's hand. Even for a virgin who has never been touched, that orgasm was... probably way quicker than it should have been- ESPECIALLY considering the fact that Hiiragi already jerked himself off plenty both last night and this morning. Perhaps this is Hiiragi's divine punishment for teasing Shizusumi about being the first one to cum during all of their sex-talk last night....
-But Hiiragi couldn't help it!!! The experience of being together with Shizu like this is still so completely unreal, it's hard for Hiiragi not to feel like this all must be one of his more elaborate dreams. Still, even though this was nothing more than "just" a handjob and some dick-rubbing, Hiiragi feels as if he literally just came his brains out, for how strong it was. He trembles violently as his cock is stroked throughout his orgasm; sensitive as it's seemingly milked dry. A pathetic whimper leaves his throat when his sensitivity becomes too much to handle; eyes teary from all of the overwhelming stimulation. He still can't catch his breath enough to speak just yet, but his hand shakily reaches down to where their bodies are joined to try and ease the other boy's hand aside. The message should be clear- he wants to touch Shizusumi too... So he goes to do exactly that; wrapping his smaller hand around just the drummer's cock to try and finish him off if allowed to do so.]
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Date: 2021-02-06 08:40 am (UTC)His voice is thick with arousal, low, deep as always but his need that shows in that thick cock twitching with need against Hiiragi’s own, bleeds out in his voice as well, as his hand works over both of them.]
That’s your fault.
[It’s an honest answer and confirms what Hiiragi is thinking, he is like this because he needs Hiiragi, this is more than just a desire, it’s consuming and as he feels, sees, hears the singer come undone against him this way, his head spins. His heart gallops out of his chest like a runaway mustang. This is everything he has ever wanted, Hiiragi is his, Hiiragi is this worked up because of him. Because he wants him.
Then his name is called in the sweetest sound he ever heard, his lips part, meaning to go in for a kiss but that declaration of pleasure coded in his name as Hiiragi’s cum coats his fingers, making a mess of them makes the drummer groan, hot, heavy, the same as his cock there responding eagerly to his boyfriend’s orgasm and the continued stimulation of his stroking.
Truth, Shizu should not be this hard, this close to the edge himself; Hiiragi is not the only one who had to see repeatedly to needs both last night and this morning, but his hand is never enough, especially now when. OH, SHIT…he knows what Hiiragi is after as he dives into a full kiss against those whimpering lips. He lets his hand fall away, not caring about the mess as he moves both hands so they can each grip one of Hiiragi’s ass cheeks, those slender fingers are around him, and he feels the desire like molten lava as he rocks his hips, moving their bodies in his need to move into that touch to feel Hiiragi stroke him so he can tumble over that edge.
So that they can both clean up, cover up and get the hell off this train where Shizusumi can properly love every inch of the other boy’s body.]
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Date: 2021-02-16 04:58 am (UTC)Mmm.... [He hums a pleased note within his throat as he grabs hold of Shizusumi's cock; still looking down at it intently as the other boy thrusts his hips. Now that his own mind has cleared up a little, he's able to fully appreciate the sights before him; the way the swollen head of Shizusumi's cock repeatedly juts out from within Hiiragi's closed grip, and the drummer's brow furrows together in concentration as he works urgently to fuck Hiiragi's fist to completion. It's enough to make his heart race with excitement, still, as he moves his hand in perfect rhythm along with Shizu's thrusts.
Hiiragi smirks, and gives a still-breathless chuckle.] Haha, your desperate face... is pretty cute, y'know~
He couldn't help but tease. Well, he probably COULD have helped it, but he didn't want to. Something about holding Shizu's pleasure in his hand like this, KNWOING how much the other boy wants him... Fills Hiiragi with the irresistible urge to experimentally 'test' his boyfriend a little.]
Do you like it like this...? Tell me...
[He works his wrist in a sort of twisting motion now, each time his grip slides up to the head of Shizumi's cock. The movements of his hand quicken significantly; all slicked up thanks to remnants of his own hot fluids that spilled all over the other teen as well. Lewd, wet squelching noises are just barely heard above the sound of the moving train, and Hiiragi moves in closer to whisper in a tone of playful curiosity.] ...You look like you're feeling good.
Shizu.... [His hand stops to squeeze around the base of Shizusumi's cock tightly.] I really wanna hear your voice more.
Can you say my name for me?
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Date: 2021-02-21 05:20 am (UTC)He can feel the change in Hiiragi, hear it in the pleased hum, feel in the way those digits wrap around him. He groans, no matter how he moves his hips, it’s those fingers, gripping, sliding with that heated touch as he thrusts into them, it’s Hiiragi’s hand and it is not long before pre-cum leaks from his head, mixing in with the mess Hiiragi already made of their laps.]
Do—ha don’t be mean.
[Fuck, Hiiragi is touching him, teasing him, talking to him as his body clambers towards that pinnacle and Shizusumi is seconds away from spilling seed on his boyfriend’s hand. The background sounds from their fluids barely register. One hand coming up, he cups Hiiragi’s face when he comes closer, chin rising so that lips which pant out hot breath hover near the singer’s]
I want more..
[More than that he needs it, the walk to home is going to feel like forever, the urge to drag Hiiragi into the first private place they can find will be so strong. But, he also wants to at least give his boyfriend the benefit of losing his virginity in a bed, not in some random restroom on the way home.
Whatever happens after this, at that moment his hips shudder, thrusting hard into Hiiragi’s hand, voice calling out quietly, yet for Shizusumi’s it’s like screaming.]
Hi—hiiragi..I want you.
[It should feel embarrassing, it will when he has his right mind, at this moment, all he can think about is giving the other boy everything he wants, doing anything he can to make them both feel as good as he does when he cums in Hiiragi’s hand, cock twitching as he is gripped so tightly around the base, hips impatient in the want to keep moving, to not be cut off that way.]
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Date: 2021-03-07 01:09 am (UTC)[Hiiragi quickens the pace of his hand.] Hehe, aren't I treating you really nicely right now, though~?
[The blond continues to tease; jerking Shizusumi off, twisting his slippery fingers around the head of the other boy's cock. It makes him feel incredibly powerful to make the ever-cool Shizusumi come undone; to make it so that it's impossible for him to hide his emotions. But, unfortunately for Hiiragi, that just makes Shizusumi's passionate stare and yearning voice even harder to endure. When the brunette cups his face and clearly states what he wants, bluntly laying his desires out on the table, Hiiragi shudders and eases up the pressure of the hand squeezing around the base of Shizusumi's cock.]
J-jeez... [Blushing, Hiiragi's heart skips a beat within his chest.] You're so unfair.
[Slowly, he starts stroking Shizisumi again, rubbing firmly in long strokes to ease the other teen towards his orgasm.]
Me too...
I... I want you too. Soon... [Quickly, Hiiragi clarifies, just in case-]
--But not, like, here. So hurry up and take me away, alright...?
Don't make me wait too long. I want this... inside of me, no matter what. [With that, Hiiragi firmly squeezes Shizusumi's length again, as he feels his boyfriend spill his seed against his fingers; the hot gooey cum adding to the mess that Hiiragi already made between them. Hiiragi trembles; arousal threatening to overtake him once again as he watches Shizu reach his climax up close. The other boy might not seem very expressive to most people, but for Shizu, even his subtle expression of strain and pleasure might as well be his way of shouting in ecstasy. Hiiragi has imagined it in his head several times; the way that Shizu might look when he comes... But nothing came close to the sexiness of reality. Hiiragi swallows hard in his throat as he strokes Shizusumi through his orgasm, making sure to squeeze out every drop he can from Shizusumi's impossibly-hard and throbbing cock.
Then he's finally finished. Hiiragi pants for breath shakily; far too turned on for someone who just came a few moments ago himself. But it wouldn't be good to start anything else up here and now; they already took a major risk doing this much on the train, and they shouldn't push their luck any further...
So, Hiiragi removes his hand from Shizu's cock as the other boy recovers from his climax. Hiiragi looks down at the cum coating his hand and bristles as a realization hits him far too late-]
...We... really made a mess of ourselves....
[And it was totally worth it. But-]
What are we gonna do now...?
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Date: 2021-03-17 05:25 am (UTC)How am I unfair?
[He is a little breathless still from his climax, from still being so aroused despite what they’d just done. Then Hiiragi speaks more, says words that have his cock twitching, heat flooding him all over again. Words that make him want to take the other teenager right here, on this train.
But he won’t.]
That’s unfair, saying things like that.
[But he likes it, the tone of his voice, heavy with desire, gives him away. Unfair, yes, because it only arouses him more. He will take him away from here as fast as he can, except they can’t jump off a moving train. Right now, he knows he can’t just rush into being inside of Hiirag, I but the words he says, when he says how badly he wants it, all he can think about is burying himself inside; he wants that.
And Hiiragi draws his attention to the mess they’ve made. Shizu thinks for a second, reaches into his bag, and pulls out his shirt for gym class. He lifts his chin, pressing his lips to Hiiragi’s before looking down to take the shirt and clean up as much of the mess there as he can.]
We’re almost to the next stop..we’ll get off there and head straight to my house. You can text your mom later, tell her you’re staying the night.
[Because as he finishes cleaning the mess precisely what he thinks is, what they do now is spend the day lost in each other. The world can wait, he wants Hiiragi, and as badly as he wants, he also does not want to rush; he wants to savor every moment of these firsts with his boyfriend.]